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Wednesday - March 14, 2007

 I rewarded myself alright. After successfully completing seven days of the cabbage soup diet, I rewarded myself with a carb day. I ate eggs for breakfast. No carbs there. But for lunch I ate some mini tacos. And eggs. But not the kind that hens lay. The kind that Brach's makes. I ate an entire bag and a half. Then I ate pasta for dinner. I felt SO GUILTY! And I was SO sick of those eggs by the end of the day. I even had a couple of canker sores in my mouth from all the sugar. But the mayhem didn't end there...


Monday - March 12, 2007

Today is freedom day. It's the day after my 7 day diet is over. It's reward day. I thought about what I would reward myself with for the last two days. Mostly, I thought about those brach's malted milk ball eggs. But also, I thought about a baked potato since the one last Tuesday night that was allowed was so heavenly! All totalled, I lost SIX PLUS POUNDS. The scale was at 139.2 this morning. It started at 145.6!!! 

I learned A LOT while on this diet. It was a lot like fasting because I realized how powerful my body is over me. It tries to dictate what it wants me to feed it. During this diet, I took control over it. There was a struggle and I am happy to report that I won. I never did give in or cheat on this diet. I followed it strictly with one exception. I drank a tablespoon of soy milk for a couple of the days in my tea because soy milk keeps me from having hot flashes. Other than that, I stuck to it with faithfulness.

Another thing I learned was how creative we can get with fruits and vegetables. There are SO many ways to prepare them! I couldn't have any milk products except for a pat of butter on Tuesday night and up to 8 glasses of skim milk on Day 5. So, I learned that you can use roasted garlic as a great dip for a steamed artichoke or smeared on endive. Roasted asparagus is awesome. Cut carrots and celery and cherry tomatoes make a great takealong snack. Delicious salad dressings can be made without any fats at all. And cabbage soup is actually quite tasty. My daughter and I did a mini research project on what the difference is between a vegetable and a fruit. Aparently a lot of what I've called vegetables are actually fruits by the definition of the word. Tomatoes, cucumbers and squash are all actually fruits! They are the fruit of the plant. Veggies like lettuce and celery and carrots and peas are other parts of the plant, like roots, leaves, stems and seeds.

I also learned about negative calorie foods. These are foods that take more calories to digest than what you ingest while eating them. I found this news the most interesting because I can use it for my lifestyle eating, not for just this temporary diet.


Sunday - March 04, 2007
I started the cabbage soup diet yesterday. I felt like my weight was ballooning out of control since Christmas and I had lost control of my eating habits especially since the introduction of the season of the EGG. The Brach's malted milk ball egg that is. So, I found this detox and rapid weight loss diet online. Since it's centered around a soup recipe that's been in my family since I met my husband, a soup we all know and love, I thought it would be good. I also decided that I needed som detoxification anyway. Last year, at this time I weighed 153, according to the doctor's office. By last Fall I got all the way down to 132, and felt wonderful. However, when I got on the scale the other day, my weight was at 144! That's what triggered the alarm and the research to find this diet. So far, after a day on the diet, I'm already at 143.6. To check my progress, click "read more" below...

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Wednesday - February 14, 2007
On Friday Feb 9, the day after my 46th birthday, I cried myself all the way home from work. It was the 8th of absolutely NO SALES for me, and just one of many in a blur since November that I've had to face. When I got home, I cried myself to sleep. Just two weeks prior to that I came home sobbing and announced to my husband and daughter that I did not think I was cut out for this kind of work. On Saturday, the day after I cried myself home, I fought tears all the way into work. I fought them for the first couple of hours at work as well. I'd prayed just before going into the office "Please God, send me some lay downs." Lay downs are people who actually come in with the purpose of buying. They are rare. My husband and I were not even lay downs when we bought our ownership. Then, when I did my devotions, which I do at work every day, the message for that particular day was about God rescuing His children when they cry out to Him. It said something to the effect that God's answer is "of course I'm able to rescue you, and I have done that many times. But if I do this for you, where is your victory? And how will you learn to overcome?" I remember thinking "oh!" So, it took a couple of hours for it to sink in, but by the end of the day when I still had not gotten any sales, I was FINE, just fine. I wasn't teary. I wasn't bitter. I wasn't bewildered or resentful. I didn't blame God, or even myself. I didn't cry! But on the way to church with my husband the next morning, we talked about the peaks and valleys I've been through. I remembered that it was hard last year, but I never remembered crying myself home or to sleep last year. I asked my husband if it was all worth it. Neither of us really had the answer at the time. Then, later that day, we attended my company's annual awards banquet and we got our answer...

Friday - February 02, 2007
I'm still learning. Every day. I'm learning that I must get and keep control of my emotions. If I could do that, I believe, all the other "drivers" in my life (health, finances, spiritual growth, relationships) will align much easier. So, at the end of the day, today, when I felt like I'd been beaten up by the public and I wanted to reflect on what I'd done wrong, and cry, I instead reflected on what my boss, Autumn, told me. She said, "quit looking in the rearview mirror or you'll crash." Whenever tears threatened, I repeated what she said like a mantra and forged ahead. But it was an uphill battle. Then my daughter called and told me something so funny that I laughed out loud, a great deep belly laugh that lasted. It was exhilarating and healing. I found my elixir. From now on, I have decided, whenever tears threaten, I will use laughter to counter them!

Thursday - January 25, 2007
Every day that I go in to work, I face the new challenge of believing that I am still where I should be, that I am still valuable to the company and can make sales. It's been one of the hardest trials I've ever had to face because circumstances dictate the opposite. My paycheck has dwindled (though I AM still getting paid!) and my reports show me as being either 3% or below in closing. All the circumstances SAY that I am in danger, that I am slipping and losing ground. But, in the face of it, I still visualize what I want, which is many sales, a high closing percentage, happy owners, energy, large paychecks, abundance. And I praise God, loudly and often. I make affirmations like "money comes to me easily and often," "I make over $125,000 per year," and "I weigh 125 pounds," and "I am a member of President's Club." I read my goals. I pray. I pray. I pray. And I enlist others to pray for me. But nothing, it seemed was happening. We're into our third week of the first month of this year... and I have only ONE SALE under my belt! Every day, I am getting NO after NO after NO. But something wonderful happened at work last night...

Monday - January 22, 2007
I had no idea how dependent I was on the internet until this morning when there is an outage of service in our area! First of all, it's my day off, so I planned on getting a lot accomplished today. My first project, that was going to go on while I focused on other projects was to manage my iTunes library. Previously when I ran out of room on my Powerbook, I deleted a lot of song folders in my library because I have the CDs and could play those whenever I wanted. I needed the room! Now that I have tons of room on my MacBook Pro, I intended to put all those songs back. So, I started that project this morning. I set up "base camp" in the living room, near where I store all my CDs and began to create piles of CDs I knew I needed to re-load, and some I wasn't certain whether or not I'd deleted them. And I started to re-load albums. But the track names didn't load. I couldn't figure out why. So, I went online to find an answer... but I couldn't connect. I thought it was because someone else was sucking my bandwidth. So, I went upstairs and turned off my modem for a few minutes, but when I restarted it, I still couldn't connect. By this time I knew it wasn't proximity either, like it has been before, because I was sitting right next to the wireless routers. At this time, I got an automatic call from the utility company to call them back about my account. My sales have been so low since November, but I was sure I'd been up-to-date with my bills. Still I couldn't check my account online because the internet was out. I checked the cable on my TV and sure enough it was out. Of course my first thought was "have I missed paying some bills?" I wanted to find out what's been paid recently... but I couldn't access my online bank account information since the internet was out. I couldn't access my utility account before calling them back. I wanted to have all my information straight before talking to them. I called Comcast to find out what was going on with my internet and cable, and learned that they do, indeed, have an outage in my area. Phew. At least it wasn't me not paying my bill! But then, it is still frustrating since I can't really access anything to take care of any of the projects I had determined to work on today! I can't pay my bills on this my day off. I can't even listen to my daily Bible reading... or access my daily devotion. At this moment, it dawned on me how dependent I am! It is a bit alarming.

Wednesday - January 17, 2007
My aunt sent me an email summarizing this article from the San Francisco Chronicle about a whale rescue that SO touched me, I had to go find the original story and read it. Sure enough, it is a true story and I love to think about it. It just makes me smile. Clicking on the "read more" link below you can read the whole article reprinted on my blog, but if you click on the link above, you can see the photos as well.

Tuesday - January 16, 2007
iTunes gift certificate are always welcome
Jake Shimabukuro's Gently Weeps album
The Incredibles dvd
more blank recordable dvds
more ink for my Epson photo 300 and HP 6100 allinone printer
upgraded MS Office Suite
iWork
my car fixed where the tree smashed it on the passenger fender
my car seat back levers fixed
a protective case for my Treo700p
XtremeMac MicroMemo Digital Voice Recorder for my iPod
USB 23-in-1 Portable Memory Card Reader
Wii game system (this is a new desire since trying out my son's last night!)
wireless headphones for television viewing
(and everything on my wish list at amazon.com)

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good grief

he's gone

waiting

breakthrough

what I've learned so far

sobbing

frustrating new things

panda sneezes

death in the family

faith without works is dead

battling hormones/feeling sorry for myself

savings plan

steps toward the dark side

cell phone + mushroom soup = lesson

job description for moms

the eepie bird guys are back

the consequences of sin (the story of Ted Haggard)

run in at work

things i've done

blue fridays

the secret

oct 19 song of the day

oct 19 verse of the day

just washed car = rainy day

little girl giant


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