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Wednesday - March 28, 2007
Wednesday - March 14, 2007
I rewarded myself alright. After successfully completing seven days of the cabbage soup diet, I rewarded myself with a carb day. I ate eggs for breakfast. No carbs there. But for lunch I ate some mini tacos. And eggs. But not the kind that hens lay. The kind that Brach's makes. I ate an entire bag and a half. Then I ate pasta for dinner. I felt SO GUILTY! And I was SO sick of those eggs by the end of the day. I even had a couple of canker sores in my mouth from all the sugar. But the mayhem didn't end there...
Monday - March 12, 2007
Today is freedom day. It's the day after my 7 day diet is over. It's reward day. I thought about what I would reward myself with for the last two days. Mostly, I thought about those brach's malted milk ball eggs. But also, I thought about a baked potato since the one last Tuesday night that was allowed was so heavenly! All totalled, I lost SIX PLUS POUNDS. The scale was at 139.2 this morning. It started at 145.6!!! I learned A LOT while on this diet. It was a lot like fasting because I realized how powerful my body is over me. It tries to dictate what it wants me to feed it. During this diet, I took control over it. There was a struggle and I am happy to report that I won. I never did give in or cheat on this diet. I followed it strictly with one exception. I drank a tablespoon of soy milk for a couple of the days in my tea because soy milk keeps me from having hot flashes. Other than that, I stuck to it with faithfulness. Another thing I learned was how creative we can get with fruits and vegetables. There are SO many ways to prepare them! I couldn't have any milk products except for a pat of butter on Tuesday night and up to 8 glasses of skim milk on Day 5. So, I learned that you can use roasted garlic as a great dip for a steamed artichoke or smeared on endive. Roasted asparagus is awesome. Cut carrots and celery and cherry tomatoes make a great takealong snack. Delicious salad dressings can be made without any fats at all. And cabbage soup is actually quite tasty. My daughter and I did a mini research project on what the difference is between a vegetable and a fruit. Aparently a lot of what I've called vegetables are actually fruits by the definition of the word. Tomatoes, cucumbers and squash are all actually fruits! They are the fruit of the plant. Veggies like lettuce and celery and carrots and peas are other parts of the plant, like roots, leaves, stems and seeds. I also learned about negative calorie foods. These are foods that take more calories to digest than what you ingest while eating them. I found this news the most interesting because I can use it for my lifestyle eating, not for just this temporary diet.
Sunday - March 04, 2007
I started the cabbage soup diet yesterday. I
felt like my weight was ballooning out of control since
Christmas and I had lost control of my eating habits especially
since the introduction of the season of the
EGG. The Brach's malted milk ball egg that is. So, I found
this detox and rapid weight loss diet online. Since it's
centered around a soup recipe that's been in my family since I
met my husband, a soup we all know and love, I thought it would
be good. I also decided that I needed som detoxification
anyway. Last year, at this time I weighed 153, according to the
doctor's office. By last Fall I got all the way down to 132,
and felt wonderful. However, when I got on the scale the other
day, my weight was at 144! That's what triggered the alarm and
the research to find this diet. So far, after a day on the
diet, I'm already at 143.6. To check my progress, click "read
more" below...
Wednesday - February 14, 2007
On Friday Feb 9, the day after my
46th birthday, I cried myself all the way home from work. It was the 8th of
absolutely NO SALES for me, and just one of many in a blur since November that
I've had to face. When I got home, I cried myself to sleep. Just two weeks prior
to that I came home sobbing and announced to my husband and daughter that I did
not think I was cut out for this kind of work. On Saturday, the day after I
cried myself home, I fought tears all the way into work. I fought them for the
first couple of hours at work as well. I'd prayed just before going into the
office "Please God, send me some lay downs." Lay downs are people who actually
come in with the purpose of buying. They are rare. My husband and I were not
even lay downs when we bought our ownership. Then, when I did my devotions,
which I do at work every day, the message for that particular day was about God
rescuing His children when they cry out to Him. It said something to the effect
that God's answer is "of course I'm able to rescue you, and I have done that
many times. But if I do this for you, where is your victory? And how will you
learn to overcome?" I remember thinking "oh!" So, it took a couple of hours for
it to sink in, but by the end of the day when I still had not gotten any sales,
I was FINE, just fine. I wasn't teary. I wasn't bitter. I wasn't bewildered or
resentful. I didn't blame God, or even myself. I didn't cry! But on the way to
church with my husband the next morning, we talked about the peaks and valleys
I've been through. I remembered that it was hard last year, but I never
remembered crying myself home or to sleep last year. I asked my husband if it
was all worth it. Neither of us really had the answer at the time. Then, later
that day, we attended my company's annual awards banquet and we got our
answer...
Friday - February 02, 2007
I'm still learning. Every day. I'm
learning that I must get and keep control of my emotions. If I could do that, I
believe, all the other "drivers" in my life (health, finances, spiritual growth,
relationships) will align much easier. So, at the end of the day, today, when I
felt like I'd been beaten up by the public and I wanted to reflect on what I'd
done wrong, and cry, I instead reflected on what my boss, Autumn, told me. She
said, "quit looking in the rearview mirror or you'll crash." Whenever tears
threatened, I repeated what she said like a mantra and forged ahead. But it was
an uphill battle. Then my daughter called and told me something so funny that I
laughed out loud, a great deep belly laugh that lasted. It was exhilarating and
healing. I found my elixir. From now on, I have decided, whenever tears
threaten, I will use laughter to counter them!
Thursday - January 25, 2007
Every day that I go in to work, I
face the new challenge of believing that I am still where I should be, that I am
still valuable to the company and can make sales. It's been one of the hardest
trials I've ever had to face because circumstances dictate the opposite. My
paycheck has dwindled (though I AM still getting paid!) and my reports show me
as being either 3% or below in closing. All the circumstances SAY that I am in
danger, that I am slipping and losing ground. But, in the face of it, I still
visualize what I want, which is many sales, a high closing percentage, happy
owners, energy, large paychecks, abundance. And I praise God, loudly and often.
I make affirmations like "money comes to me easily and often," "I make over
$125,000 per year," and "I weigh 125 pounds," and "I am a member of President's
Club." I read my goals. I pray. I pray. I pray. And I enlist others to pray for
me. But nothing, it seemed was happening. We're into our third week of the first
month of this year... and I have only ONE SALE under my belt! Every day, I am
getting NO after NO after NO. But something wonderful happened at work last
night...
Monday - January 22, 2007
I had no idea how dependent I was
on the internet until this morning when there is an outage of service in our
area! First of all, it's my day off, so I planned on getting a lot accomplished
today. My first project, that was going to go on while I focused on other
projects was to manage my iTunes library. Previously when I ran out of room on
my Powerbook, I deleted a lot of song folders in my library because I have the
CDs and could play those whenever I wanted. I needed the room! Now that I have
tons of room on my MacBook Pro, I intended to put all those songs back. So, I
started that project this morning. I set up "base camp" in the living room, near
where I store all my CDs and began to create piles of CDs I knew I needed to
re-load, and some I wasn't certain whether or not I'd deleted them. And I
started to re-load albums. But the track names didn't load. I couldn't figure
out why. So, I went online to find an answer... but I couldn't connect. I
thought it was because someone else was sucking my bandwidth. So, I went
upstairs and turned off my modem for a few minutes, but when I restarted it, I
still couldn't connect. By this time I knew it wasn't proximity either, like it
has been before, because I was sitting right next to the wireless routers. At
this time, I got an automatic call from the utility company to call them back
about my account. My sales have been so low since November, but I was sure I'd
been up-to-date with my bills. Still I couldn't check my account online because
the internet was out. I checked the cable on my TV and sure enough it was out.
Of course my first thought was "have I missed paying some bills?" I wanted to
find out what's been paid recently... but I couldn't access my online bank
account information since the internet was out. I couldn't access my utility
account before calling them back. I wanted to have all my information straight
before talking to them. I called Comcast to find out what was going on with my
internet and cable, and learned that they do, indeed, have an outage in my area.
Phew. At least it wasn't me not paying my bill! But then, it is still
frustrating since I can't really access anything to take care of any of the
projects I had determined to work on today! I can't pay my bills on this my day
off. I can't even listen to my daily Bible reading... or access my daily
devotion. At this moment, it dawned on me how dependent I am! It is a bit
alarming.
Wednesday - January 17, 2007
My aunt sent me an email
summarizing this article from the San Francisco Chronicle about a
whale rescue that SO touched me, I had to go find the original story and read
it. Sure enough, it is a true story and I love to think about it. It just makes
me smile. Clicking on the "read more" link below you can read the whole article
reprinted on my blog, but if you click on the link above, you can see the photos
as well.
Tuesday - January 16, 2007
iTunes gift certificate are always
welcome
Jake Shimabukuro's Gently Weeps album The Incredibles dvd more blank recordable dvds more ink for my Epson photo 300 and HP 6100 allinone printer upgraded MS Office Suite iWork my car fixed where the tree smashed it on the passenger fender my car seat back levers fixed a protective case for my Treo700p XtremeMac MicroMemo Digital Voice Recorder for my iPod USB 23-in-1 Portable Memory Card Reader Wii game system (this is a new desire since trying out my son's last night!) wireless headphones for television viewing (and everything on my wish list at amazon.com) trying to get blog publishing back like a greek tragedy merry christmas everyone! couldn't sleep at all last night, doot doot doot doot doot power outage,new computer, making the goal good grief he's gone waiting breakthrough what I've learned so far sobbing frustrating new things panda sneezes death in the family faith without works is dead battling hormones/feeling sorry for myself savings plan steps toward the dark side cell phone + mushroom soup = lesson job description for moms the eepie bird guys are back the consequences of sin (the story of Ted Haggard) run in at work things i've done blue fridays the secret oct 19 song of the day oct 19 verse of the day just washed car = rainy day little girl giant |
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